Personal Experience

My name is Nick... and I was extremely fortunate to meet Shri Mataji back in 1980
after I returned from an overseas tour in Brunei, an oil rich sultanate in Borneo, where
I had become unwell due to being unwisely accommodated in a heavily air-conditioned
hotel whilst working daily in the jungles & swamps on the equator very close to the sea.
The daily extreme temperature swings were too much for my health.

When I returned home, I continued with my usual activities, which included a personal
'meditation' & also continued with my interest in things esoteric. My meditation
experiences were interesting... in that they led almost immediately to me 'finding' Shri
Mataji. I was meditating on the story of the return of the prodigal son.... & seeing
parallels with my own life. I somehow could not believe that the Divine could create
this whole Universe, this whole world with all of it's wonderful diversity of creations,
including all of humanity... with all it's wonderful intricacies of structures &
complexities, & then abandon it... without first providing a way... a route back to
Him. There had to be a way... a shortcut back to God. So I decided that I had to
look for it... that 'this' was my destiny. In my meditations, I seemed to be facing an
area full of light... not unlike the atmosphere or sky on a clear day stretching away to
distant horizons... into which I felt I had to somehow venture... but... there was a
problem... there seemed to be an impenetrable and invisible barrier to any forward
progress... a bit like a great sheet of invisible glass. I was somehow anchored to the
spot where I now was... unable to move into those new beckoning realms. I somehow
'knew' that I could not progress any further without first achieving a higher state of
awareness... a higher state of consciousness. click for more....

In my 'seeking'... I had already heard of the concept of Self Realisation... & thought
I knew what it was. Little did I then know that true 'Self Realisation' actually
represented that very state of 'higher consciousness'... that 'higher awareness'...
which I now sought... & which we now call as 'Collective Consciousness', & that I was
about to find it... in Sahaja Yoga. At this point I received some guidance, whilst
waking one morning... at a point seemingly midway between 'sleeping' & 'waking'...
neither one nor the other... or so it seemed. -I heard this voice... very loud...
commanding me to GO... (Later I was to realise that it was not unlike the voice that
I was to become very familiar with... whilst listening regularly to talks given at Sahaja
Yoga meetings in London) It was like someone telling me in a very loud very commanding
voice to 'Go'... But to go where? do what? why? what or who was that voice? all the
questions started rushing in. After a short period pondering this unusual event... it
happened again... a second time, a week or two later... exactly the same thing...
except that this time the voice said... 'Go to Birmingham'. I had never been to
Birmingham, & had no contacts there... how strange. This time I was ready... & threw
some clothes & things into a small case, went downstairs... & without much hope of
being able to explain to my rather materialistic father... off I went to buy a one way
ticket to B'ham. click for more....

To cut the proverbial long story rather shorter... no more than a few weeks later,
I saw in the local newspaper, an advert for a Sahaja Yoga meeting to be held in
Birmingham in which it said that Shri Mataji would be speaking... and that She would
be granting Self Realisation to all those who were 'Sincerely Seeking'. So... well I
mean that's what I was doing... that's why I was there... I was seeking for this
'short cut'... & I thought I was sincere... so I went along. In my whole life, I had
been an ardent seeker... though perhaps misguided til now... and I had been to a few
'wrong' places... but never to a 'Guru' as such... but here I was... in the meeting
with several other people.
My initial experience was strong... very strong... but the strange thing was that
although I was familiar with the idea of Self Realisation... it was nothing like
I expected. I had gone there with a strong desire... to find the truth... and
one which included surrendering all my own cherished ideas and beliefs about
God... which I had worked out for myself over the years... if it could be shown
that I was in any way in error. I suppose this was why my initial experience was
perhaps a little stronger than normal.

Our Most Holy Mother Her Holiness Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi
My name is Nick... and I was extremely fortunate to meet Shri Mataji back in 1980 after I returned from an overseas tour in Brunei, an oil rich sultanate in Borneo, where I had become unwell due to being unwisely accommodated in a heavily air-conditioned hotel whilst working daily in the jungles & swamps on the equator very close to the sea. The daily extreme temperature swings were too much for my health. click for more.... When I returned home, I continued with my usual activities, which included a personal 'meditation' & also continued with my interest in things esoteric. My meditation experiences were interesting... in that they led almost immediately to me 'finding' Shri Mataji. I was meditating on the story of the return of the prodigal son.... & seeing parallels with my own life. I somehow could not believe that the Divine could create this whole Universe, this whole world with all of it's wonderful diversity of creations, including all of humanity... with all it's wonderful intricacies of structures & complexities, & then abandon it... without first providing a way... a route back to Him. There had to be a way... a shortcut back to God. So I decided that I had to look for it... that 'this' was my destiny. In my meditations, I seemed to be facing an area full of light... not unlike the atmosphere or sky on a clear day stretching away to distant horizons... into which I felt I had to somehow venture... but... there was a problem... there seemed to be an impenetrable and invisible barrier to any forward progress... a bit like a great sheet of invisible glass. I was somehow anchored to the spot where I now was... unable to move into those new beckoning realms. I somehow 'knew' that I could not progress any further without first achieving a higher state of awareness... a higher state of consciousness. click for more.... In my 'seeking'... I had already heard of the concept of Self Realisation... & thought I knew what it was. Little did I then know that true 'Self Realisation' actually represented that very state of 'higher consciousness'... that 'higher awareness'... which I now sought... & which we now call as 'Collective Consciousness', & that I was about to find it... in Sahaja Yoga. At this point I received some guidance, whilst waking one morning... at a point seemingly midway between 'sleeping' & 'waking'... neither one nor the other... or so it seemed. -I heard this voice... very loud... commanding me to GO... (Later I was to realise that it was not unlike the voice that I was to become very familiar with... whilst listening regularly to talks given at Sahaja Yoga meetings in London) It was like someone telling me in a very loud very commanding voice to 'Go'... But to go where? do what? why? what or who was that voice? all the questions started rushing in. After a short period pondering this unusual event... it happened again... a second time, a week or two later... exactly the same thing... except that this time the voice said... 'Go to Birmingham'. I had never been to Birmingham, & had no contacts there... how strange. This time I was ready... & threw some clothes & things into a small case, went downstairs... & without much hope of being able to explain to my rather materialistic father... off I went to buy a one way ticket to B'ham. click for more.... To cut the proverbial long story rather shorter... no more than a few weeks later, I saw in the local newspaper, an advert for a Sahaja Yoga meeting to be held in Birmingham in which it said that Shri Mataji would be speaking... and that She would be granting Self Realisation to all those who were 'Sincerely Seeking'. So... well I mean that's what I was doing... that's why I was there... I was seeking for this 'short cut'... & I thought I was sincere... so I went along. In my whole life, I had been an ardent seeker... though perhaps misguided til now... and I had been to a few 'wrong' places... but never to a 'Guru' as such... but here I was... in the meeting with several other people. My initial experience was strong... very strong... but the strange thing was that although I was familiar with the idea of Self Realisation... it was nothing like I expected. I had gone there with a strong desire... to find the truth... and one which included surrendering all my own cherished ideas and beliefs about God... which I had worked out for myself over the years... if it could be shown that I was in any way in error. I suppose this was why my initial experience was perhaps a little stronger than normal. more.... At first, when Shri Mataji spoke about the whole subject of Self Realisation, & about this energy feeling like a cool breeze in the hands, I had felt it like a coolness, about the size of a 50p piece in the centres of the palms. From the stage at one point She had seemed to be asking me if I felt anything... why was She asking me? Then, Shri Mataji came down from the stage and spoke to each new person in turn... and She eventually reached the new person seated next to me. As She was dealing with him, somebody behind me, after ascertaining that I had felt at least something, told me to close my eyes. A moment or so later, there was a tremendous rushing... like a torrent... like a river in flood... flowing over my hands... and pouring up both my arms... up as far as the elbows. Again, a moment or so later... a great energy appeared inside my body, moving from below upwards, from around the stomach area, & moving upwards in the region of the spine... and shooting off through the top of the head. It was rather like the upsurge of oil in the desert... when making that first strike... and the whole drilling rig gets blown away as the first uprush of oil appears. Some time later I opened my eyes... and standing in front of me, looking deep into my eyes was Shri Mataji. It was a powerful and almost overwhelming experience... but oh so gentle... so peaceful... and absolutely no suggestion of any discomfort whatsoever. more.... I suppose I had expected with Self Realisation... that everything would be magically transformed... and that I would suddenly be aware of a completely spiritual world... surrounded by spiritual beings... and some sort of ethereal existence. Nothing of the sort. All I became aware of, that was new to me, was a cool energy flowing... even from the papers that were handed out at the meeting, and which I took home with me... and... a great sense of peace. Since then, there have been countless experiences... and joyful moments. I moved to London as soon as I learned Shri Mataji was at that time living there... and continued to be as close to Shri Mataji as was possible... and was also blessed to be one of Her chauffeurs for a while... and saw Her daily, along with many other Sahaja Yogis, both at collective gatherings, and also at Her successive Residences. We had the chance to learn a lot... and to absorb from Shri Mataji, not only the abundance of knowledge... but also to benefit enormously from the Divine 'Chaitanya', or 'Cool Vibrations' that were constantly emanating from Her Being. more.... This all was some time ago, but still we all get regular opportunities to see Shri Mataji... and to benefit from Her 'Ocean of Love and Compassion'... though we do have to travel a little more, as She now only visits England on what can only be described as rare but wonderfully joyful occasions. I learned the importance of absorbing as much as possible of the vast array of knowledge that She constantly makes available to us all... in an impressive array of talks... on an equally impressive array of subjects... which are still available as audio or video recordings. The Chaitanya or Vibrations are part of that which is recorded... and continue to have profound and beneficial effects on those who listen with meditative attention... especially on their chakras... and subtle being. My health continues to be exceptionally good... and my ascent in spiritual terms also progresses from strength to strength... an experience in common with all those who follow a regular daily meditation of just a few minutes - and it's so enjoyable too... what more can one ask. more.... This is a path for the whole of humanity... wherever the individual may be at the start... not just geographically... but also in terms more esoteric... whatever his or her race or religion... whatever position we hold in society... whatever age... whether we are educated or not. We all get equal opportunity to achieve the Ultimate. Ego is of little help... in fact it is a bit of a block a hindrance... but what we need... especially in our own relationship to the Divine is just a little more of that rare quality in the West.... humility. So come along... why not try it for yourself... it's quite simple... just get yourself to a local meeting somewhere... sit down and relax... and just see what happens. You will not regret it... and you might just end up 'for ever thankful' for the day that you decided to go along. x My very best wishes to you all... whoever may be reading this... maybe some day we may meet. May God Bless all the Seekers... and may 'you' be one of them. ~~~~~~~ more.... PS - Just a short postscript to say that all this was written some 10 or 15 years ago now... and the miracle of Sahaja Yoga continues unabated... and the many miraculous experiences continue too. Shortly it is hoped to document just a few of these here. This Nick is now 68 years old... though appearing much younger... and feeling also... still quite fit and healthy. He is active in many fields of activity in Sahaja Yoga. His intention is to continue just as long as the Most Beloved Divine Holy Mother allows, and is pleased to permit his ongoing contribution to what he sees as the 'Only Saving Grace' for humanity. Penned this 22nd August 2007 Jai Shri Mataji Nick (now, at 78 years of age (in Dec 2017), still going strong, with this major revision of this web site)
If you are having difficulty finding your local Sahaja Yoga meeting, you can go to http://www.sahajayoga.org/worldwidecontacts where you will find links to your local meetings... in whatever country it may be.
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